MICHELE HUEY: Stuck at home
Special-Tea: Exodus 3–4
What is that in your hand? — Exodus 4:2 (NIV)
After a year and a half of filling the pulpit for a small, local congregation, I felt adrift and useless — that I’d lost my sense of purpose. It didn’t hit me all at once. My last Sunday with what I’d come to call “my little flock” was Oct. 28. The next two months were filled with holiday happenings and a challenging writing course.
Then the holidays were over and the schedule settled down. Snow swirled outside and the sun, along with my writing muse, disappeared for days on end.
The weather was too inclement to walk outside and too unpredictable to plan shopping trips to town. Even my biweekly Bible study was postponed until spring. I felt stuck in Smithport. The only phone calls were my daughter’s weekly updates on Sunday evenings and requests: requests from the church’s prayer chain, requests to baby-sit the grandkids, and requests for milk, eggs, sugar, tomato paste, or whatever my sweet son and daughter-in-law didn’t have for the recipe they were making.
By the time my husband, who works 11-hour days, and I had supper, spent a little time together over tea and cleaned up the kitchen, not much was left of the evening or my energy. After my shower I watched “NCIS” reruns.
Reruns. That’s what my life felt like. Until God gave me a Gibbs-like smack on the head.
I was reading Exodus 3 about when God called Moses from leading sheep to leading His people. Moses had spent 40 years in Midian on a quiet mountainside after 40 years as a prince of Egypt. Talk about feeling put on a shelf!
“What is that in your hand?” God asked him.
“A staff,” Moses replied.
“Throw it on the ground,” God told him.
And so he did, and it turned into a snake. When God told Moses to pick it up again, and he obeyed, it turned back into a shepherd’s staff. We all know the story: how Moses led the people of Israel out of slavery in Egypt to the borders of the Promised Land.
But Moses had to first acknowledge what he already had and then let God use it for His purpose.
“What is that in your hand?” God asks me.
And I think about all that my hands touch each day: food, dishes, laundry, a keyboard, writing lesson books, a vacuum cleaner, the phone, my grandchildren’s coats and shoes when they come for a visit, Scrabble tiles and jigsaw puzzle pieces, a pencil for a game of Boggle or Yahtzee!
And I realize I can’t see the trees for the forest. I’m too busy searching “out there” in the big, wide world for my purpose, but it’s right in front of me: taking care of my husband, being available for my children and grandchildren, praying for others’ needs, proofreading my daughter’s papers as she works towards her master’s degree, mentoring student writers through Christian Writers Guild, reaching out to those who read my weekly column and blogs, working to improve the talent God gave me.
What’s in my hand?
God’s purpose for me. Not “out there,” “someday,” but here and now.
Forgive me, Lord, for treating as unimportant what You have put in my hand. Amen